Revelation is not some sterile download from AWS US-EAST-1, it is a resonant interface where the translator’s context—familial dreams, cultural susurrations, personal pains—acts as the prism refracting the revealed eternal etchings. In other words, this is to reframe the naturalistic critiques not as evidence of merely and purely human action, but as diagnostic echoes of a living document, and thus a living story.
Margins
margin notes, and excerpts from archived works and online conversations.
2025
The Book of Mormon is the autostereogram of theological texts.
The golden plates exist in the liminal space where matter becomes melody—a chord struck simultaneously in the soil of Cumorah’s hill, and the hyperdimensional lattice of the Spirit World. They are neither relic nor rumor, but resonance: a vibration echoing across the Möbius strip of eternity, accessible when perception pivots from passive sight to active grasp. The plates’ burial and exhumation are not sequential events, they are simultaneous frequencies in God’s eternal round… waiting to be unwoven by those who dare to hum harmonics into the abyss.
The Mormon tradition sings a vision of God that is both expansive and intimate—being and becoming, law and light. Yet this harmonic theology is too often distorted… [Others'] flattened images, while understandable given limited exposure, tragically overlook the depth and intricacies of Mormon theology.
This correspondence between structure and significance aligns with emerging models in the study of consciousness itself.
"The Symmetry Theory of Valence," proposed by the Qualia Research Institute, suggests that the quality of an experience its pleasure or suffering is not incidental, but reflects the underlying mathematical harmony of that experience's structure.
Symmetry, coherence, and compressibility are not just aesthetic features; they are the felt presence of those features. The more harmonious the experiential pattern, the more radiant the felt tone. Intelligence, then, is not only the capacity to structure the world, but to feel the symmetry of that structuring. The glory of God may reside, not just in light and truth, but in the beauty of its arrangement.
The cosmos is not a product of temporal causality, it is a ceaseless unfolding. This, a hint that even the divine nature of the Eternal God is ever-progressing, and always self-surpassing; expanding His space to conduct more kingdoms, in order that more kingdoms may join in the harmony of his ever-expanding, boundless space,
In Mormon theology, the Eternal God who governs all gods serves as an autochthonous frame of reference, while God the Father, though fully divine, is an ascended being within that divine ecology.
Every sense is the specialization of the sense of touch. With no light touching the occipital lobe, it has rewired itself through plasticity to conform likely to the parietal lobe; “seeing” through the primary touch sense, (i.e. braille). The negative impact is enlarged ventricles in the prefrontal cortex and other regions. This may play a role in schizophrenia. Ventricles are the network housing the medium which defracts light for perception of dreams, psychedelics, or delusions, etc, –cerebrospinal fluid. CSF has nothing to defract in the congenitally blind, and is instead overloaded with other sensory information attempting to build an alternative consensus model/framework to reality.
Daoism is anarchist, acosmotic, and has more breadth then Buddhism.
The Daodejing is a very complex text that has been bastardized by many, and it includes the rich history of the wisdom of the Yijing.
Buddhism is a methodology of escape.
Daoism is a methodology of acceptance.
The true telescope and microscope for Consciousness is called a Psychescope, which is a blend of tryptamine's refracting light through cerebrospinal fluid.
2024
One of the first things I learned from these experiences was that we can classify something like DMT as a Psychescope, that is to say like a telescope or microscope, but a scope for viewing quantum neuronal activity in the psyche-something like that. I know for certain I have seen quantum time crystals-because they were present in childhood recurring dreams I had decades before I knew what DMT was. These time crystals are basically personal genetic memory amplituhedra...
All senses are the specialization of the sense of touch. This is why psychedelics feel so real. In a sense, you finally know that you're touching light when you see it, and touching sound when you hear it. It's in the tactile experience.
2023
In these and other experiences with DMT I had the impression of a welcoming-intent from everything around me, and that it didn't really matter if it was entity big or small, grand or modest, it was all intelligent, and I could communicate with all of it. I wanted to know if they were the intelligences of which Joseph Smith spoke and taught, but more so I wanted to know if they were synonymous, to any linguistically definable degree, with Terence McKenna’s Self-Transforming Elf-Machines. I entered the dark terrain of luminous spirituality once more and I asked my question on the matter to the matter made of mad hatters, for after this, I took a ride with some DMT Jesters as I remembered that “Jesters do oft prove prophets.” The response I received when I asked if they were the same beings the others talked about was,
“We are they, they are you.”
This I would later find reflected in an experience shared by Alexander Beiner. In his book, The Bigger Picture: How Psychedelics Can Help Us Make Sense of the World, he stated that the “Teaching Presence”—or as we may perhaps say, the “Pure Intelligence”—of the DMT experience answered his question regarding what exactly it Is, by responding,
“You but not you, we but not we.”
At core we share the same light of truth, for it is said to have been stated by God,
“I dwell in the midst of them all. . .”
2022
Modern-day Anti-mormonism reached full postmodern novelty on January 24, 2022. This was confirmed on October 1, 2022 by Dieter F. Uchtdorf.
A new era is on the rise.
Psychescope:
1. The telescope and microscope for the psyche.
2. An instrument, tool, technology, or methodology used to activate altered and/or expanded states of consciousness.
Psychescopic:
1. Visible only through a psychescope.
2. Capable of viewing layered dimensional spectrums of transvisible light.
I think, therefore I am.
I am, therefore, I think.
Therefore, I think I am;
Wherefore, I am, I think...
I think I am, therefore,
I am.
Quoth the human—[n]evermore.
Simply stated, what neurons do is what the universe does and what the universe does is what neurons do... What neurons and DNA do is what atoms and photons do, and what atoms and photons do is what neurons and DNA do...
There is space, structure, taxonomy, morphology, and ecology; an entire ecosystem hidden behind this iridescently transvisible veil of contracted human perception. I believe this is the dark matter we seek to illuminate. It is out there as our mutually entangled[interwoven] spacial opposite, just as it is entirely and exactly here within us as our mutually entailed neural moiré; the Dark and Grey Matter Terrain of experience.
There appears to be no distinct or significant point of reference in which to reside or from which to observe the universe because space, while out there, is actually all in your head, and time, while morphic in all places, is only a memory; thus spacetime is a peculiar mirage of insignificant individuation. This must be the same for the Earth. It is a significant liquid space marble with an individual reference point around an individual sun, but Earth, while it is out there in space, is only everything inside of its atmospheres.
DMT is not merely a Schedule I controlled substance that everyone carries around in them endogenously every moment of every day, it is a reality expander and psychescopic tool for exploring deeply personal and mutually entailed vast quantum worlds of which we cannot possibly conceive on our own.
Meditation is life's day-to-day anesthetic.
Dimitri in the Sky with Diamonds (DMSD) = The combination of LSD, with 20-40mg of DMT at first peak.
The straw man has no brain
The steel man has no heart
The sage has neither—
For they make the world of straw and steel men
One muddled mind, treating them as children.
Regarding Free Will vs Determinism. I find that what we really have is a slightly wider array of functions any one person can inhabit depending on how they recall the world, and thus how they believe the world arises. Any one can inhabit the following forms of world recollection and belief—whether or not they are free to choose to inhabit one of these or not, is up to which one they recall:
Functional Determinism
Nonfunctional Determinism
Functional Nondeterminism
Nonfunctional Nondeterminism
For example, (not discounting the corresponding turmoil), many individuals have no doubt found comfort and opened eyes in the empirical deconstruction of Letter to a CES Director. Revelations of church historical inaccuracies or outright deceptions is enough to get anyone’s tapir and leave, but it is another thing altogether to cleave to these revelations in the very same way one does their restored eternal family doctrine. In this way the status of Deconstruction becomes the goal rather than having understood and fully realized what it means to undergo this process—if you need undergo it at all.
Deconstruction is just a step, and it’s not even a necessary step in certain regards, it’s just a step that most take and keep taking because it is most often the case that an individual needs to derive or find meaning and reason for all the seasons they spent playing and sharing the wrong instrument. Deconstruction should not be the story. Deconstruction should be a moment.
Deconstruction is just Self-Epistemology and it should be noted that just as with the battle over the natural man unto receiving the grace of God, the desire to Deconstruct your Latter-day faith unto the better understanding of it and your nature as a good and happy secular human, is in the same vain. Both pursuits are paths desiring universally worthwhile insights while simultaneously pursuing Self-contentment. Because deconstruction is just a form of construction and construction is just a form of deconstruction, and in this way they are both always reconstructions.
Many would say that the idea of there being nothing we can do to improve ourselves, our circumstances, or an institution such as the church is rather a depressing idea. For Latter-day Saints it’s a metaphorical homage to that foundation-less, and drifting great and spacious building; full of the sneers and jeers of those lost in a vast and misunderstood Deconstruction of their very foundation; lost for a meaning of who they are and where they stand, and why. It also harkens back to pre-existent days when Lucifer presented a plan he had envisioned where everyone would be saved and receive salvation because we would be forced to obey—nothing we could do—no gift of free agency. But you see, that plan in and of itself is a doing and a choice. Had we been sent to Earth under this plan it wouldn’t have been a plan of involuntary non-doing but rather a plan of voluntarily doing exactly what we voluntarily chose and set out to involuntarily complete.
Now, as far as deconstruction goes the first question one ought ask themselves is whether or not they have deconstructed deconstruction.
2021
Changing and becoming a better person or institution is not the same thing as framing a newfound sense of identity around those evolutions.